I'm bored again... But far less depressed. I have a boyfriend! Yay!

School:
6 more days until I'm done with high school, my capstone presentation went very well, and I'm not failing a single class!

Personal:
Mack is straight edge and that's really good for me. He's going to Southern Oregon for college and I already have a small feeling of how badly it's going to hurt when he leaves. I'm so incredibly happy right now though. Life is near perfect.
I'm leaving for London on the 19th of June and won't be back until the 5th of July. I hate missing 4th of July, it's my favorite holiday and I wanted to spend it at home this year. It physically hurts me.

I sound like a stupid love struck girl but I could literally talk about Mack for hours. He's way better than any boy I have ever liked. I was at school late one day and texted him saying he should come over and give me just one kiss and then he could leave and he actually did. That was a 20 minute drive just to kiss me.



I know I'm not going to check this until September or even later and I hope when I read this I'm not sad.

It's been close to a year now since I've updated this stupid thing.

I don't know, I'm bored I guess.
Everything I'm uploading in the next while is from my digital photography class at school (I would download my prints, but I am and will forever be sans scanner).
Basically, at my school all the seniors are doing this huge end of the year project talking about what they want to be when they grow up (essentially, it's more complicated than that), and mine is dealing with zines and photography. So some of these photographs are for that, I guess I'll say if they are or not.

That's it really.

Personal:
I'm sad and depressed a lot, but doing drugs and getting drunk is helping. I cried at school the other day and that was sort of embarrassing, my counselor told me to give up (I didn't know they were allowed to say that). I AM A HIGH RISK TEEN.
Not really though. If you knew me in real life you would like me and relate.

Michael broke up with me last night. Awesome. I love being so cool.

I don't know... In retrospect, a lot of things have changed since February. But at the same time everything feels the same.

I think I'm stuck in something.

Today I'm feeling sorry for myself because I haven't seen Michael in two weeks and I'm afraid he's going to break up with me.
I really shouldn't be feeling sorry for myself though. Whenever I hear girls at school whining about their stupid boyfriends I make fun of them and think they're stupid "He's just a boy," "You weren't going to stay together forever," "You're in high school, it doesn't mean anything," But here I am, doing that exact same thing. So I don't know if I should sympathize with these girls, and keep feeling sorry for myself, or fuck off and do something productive.

I guess I'm just terrified of change. Fuck being a teenager.

Job at Good Will is working out fine. I only work 10 hours which means no money hardly, but once school is out I might work an 8 hour day once a week, plus 10 on the weekends.

Boyfriend, gooooood. But I won't go into detail.

Drugs. Eh. Not so much anymore. I never see Ellen and when I do, she's smoked it all.

School.

Friends of different places. I miss talking to them. No one writes back anymore. Except for Anna. What a kid!

I've been uploading Neil Young, a mix that Michael made me, and PDX POP NOW! onto my mp3 player for the past 45 minutes. Tomorrow will be music-tastic.


Should I go to Minus the Bear this friday? I will check everyone's schedule.